Some things are easier to say with your hands than your mouth. It seems that this is the case here. And it hurts.
> Era... Gods, I'm so sorry. > Do not blame yourself for the evil of others. > That was at the beginning of your journey; you would have joined them had you been there. > You know about Tadric. You know about what he did. Should I blame myself and my friends for not being able to save everyone? For not being yet strong enough to slay him quickly? > You did the best you could with the knowledge you had. That's the best everyone can give. But it's still painful and terrible in the end, and it's hard not to blame yourself. Believe me, I KNOW. Gods do I know. I've earned trophies for blaming myself in the past. > Being helpless is the worst feeling in the world... and blaming ourselves and forcing ourselves to be better is how we hide from it. > That was one thing death taught me. I couldn't grow stronger anymore. I could only watch as > Damn hit the button early > As innocent people were massacred. I know what that's like. I'm glad that you don't. Maybe that's selfish.
It almost seems like he's finished when he suddenly adds: I'm glad you weren't there. This isn't about me. I know it's selfish. But I'm glad you weren't there. Gods.
>It wasn't like Tadric >They weren't strangers, or people I only knew in passing >They were the closest thing to family I had >The Echo showed me what happened >I could have saved them >Instead they died >I barely had the chance to know them
> It was like Tadric. For Branden not for me. > You can't save everyone. You're the one who doesn't want me to blame myself for the Flood. > I lost everything in the flood. My friends, likely my family back home. My village. Most of the world. Everything but Seto. > And you don't want me to shoulder that blame. > How is it fair if you blame yourself for that?? > And I wish I could shove my foot up our Echo's arse!
>You were tricked and manipulated >I just was not strong enough >I am grateful for the Echo >I would have died a hundred hundred times over without it >It gifts me with more than visions of the past >More than language >More than protection from Tempering
> I never said I wasn't grateful. I just said I wanted to shove my foot up its bloody arse! Occasionally. > Also I know this sounds out of left field but can you... Echo your own memories?
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> Era... Gods, I'm so sorry.
> Do not blame yourself for the evil of others.
> That was at the beginning of your journey; you would have joined them had you been there.
> You know about Tadric. You know about what he did. Should I blame myself and my friends for not being able to save everyone? For not being yet strong enough to slay him quickly?
> You did the best you could with the knowledge you had. That's the best everyone can give. But it's still painful and terrible in the end, and it's hard not to blame yourself. Believe me, I KNOW. Gods do I know. I've earned trophies for blaming myself in the past.
> Being helpless is the worst feeling in the world... and blaming ourselves and forcing ourselves to be better is how we hide from it.
> That was one thing death taught me. I couldn't grow stronger anymore. I could only watch as
> Damn hit the button early
> As innocent people were massacred. I know what that's like. I'm glad that you don't. Maybe that's selfish.
It almost seems like he's finished when he suddenly adds:
I'm glad you weren't there. This isn't about me. I know it's selfish. But I'm glad you weren't there. Gods.
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>They weren't strangers, or people I only knew in passing
>They were the closest thing to family I had
>The Echo showed me what happened
>I could have saved them
>Instead they died
>I barely had the chance to know them
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> You can't save everyone. You're the one who doesn't want me to blame myself for the Flood.
> I lost everything in the flood. My friends, likely my family back home. My village. Most of the world. Everything but Seto.
> And you don't want me to shoulder that blame.
> How is it fair if you blame yourself for that??
> And I wish I could shove my foot up our Echo's arse!
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>I just was not strong enough
>I am grateful for the Echo
>I would have died a hundred hundred times over without it
>It gifts me with more than visions of the past
>More than language
>More than protection from Tempering
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> Also I know this sounds out of left field but can you... Echo your own memories?
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>I cannot, no.
>Occasionally I have flashbacks
>They are overwhelming and unexpected
>And only occur with traumatic events
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> That explains a lot
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>It is a common affliction
>I have literature saved on my FLUID if you would like to read more
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